So much for trying to keep a regular blog. I have a lot of crap in my mind, I should have multiple entries. Yet another one of my character flaws of not continuing what I started, also that fact that I'm freaking lazy.
I will probably write some more later, but for now a few things to update and ponder, mainly girls this time round.
I went to a friends birthday on Saturday, it was the usual gathering of people with some new faces. Now I have never really spoken to my friend's sister, we acknowledge each other like say hi but never sat down properly and have a chat.
There are reasons for this as I'll explain later. So it was the first time I spoke to her and we seemed to get along well, there was I thought a connection. At least I felt like she was giving me signals, however, I now believe I thought wrong.
Anyway yesterday I actually asked her out, but she said she wasn't looking for a relationship. I replied back that I'm very casual, not really looking just wanted to get to know her a bit better. So we are now exchanging emails and finding out how similar we actually are. For instance, we both very much go with the flow type of person. This in terms of finding relationships can be a problem with both of us. At least I never really go out of my way to look for relationships, if something comes along then so be it. She's much like that. However, I would never pass an opportunity if I didn't see one, if something could be developed, which is why I'd ask them out. I'm quite a tranditionalist, in the sense that the man has to take the 1st step, pay for the meal on the date etc. It helps though if the girl can gives us some hints tho.
In this case, it was playful mild flirting, but she does not actually want any of the attachments. In a sense she is more of a bloke than me. lol I totally get where she is coming from, being in a relationship, can hold you down, be a hassle, having to please the opposite partner and you can not do whatver you want. I can see us being friends, as I can tell she is a very independant woman. If we were together, I don't think it'd be called a relationship. I mean from what my impression is, we'll end up doing our own thing, then occasionally meet up and have sex... actually that sounds brilliantly maybe I'll jokingly suggest that. lol.
Another thing is she doesn't like chinese boys, simply becuase I believe her parents wants her to get with one. It's again being forced, so her reason is that she'll be single instead. Well good for her, I'm not the one to argue. I mean Chinese people are quite incestuous! We swap and change relationships in the same large circle like anything, if you see another chinese person, it's very likely they'd know someone you know, it's like only 2 or 3 degrees of seperation, which is really off putting. This was a case for another girl I got along with, but because she went out with one of my closer friends, even though it didn't go anywhere, I would not go there now.
Another girl who I'm sort of in contact with, which I suppose I see as a potential, but the problem there is she was having a hard time getting over her split from her now ex, when I actually asked her out. She recently tweeted that she is now over him, however I haven't really stayed in contact, so I'm not going to force a conversation again. I need her to make the move, if she has any interest. Maybe at some point I'll ask her how she is, but I'm not going to force anything. I'm funny like that.
Workwise, there has been talks of me moving to work in another department once my contract expires. Although this is not a permanent position, it still keeps me working till my holiday to HK in September. Then there is also a possible interview for a role at MWB Holdings on Monday. This is a permanent position and it covers all the experience I have done till now, so it is an easy fit, only problem would be progression. As I could be stuck doing that role for a good while, but it's permanent and it should be comfortable, I'll find out more if I get an interview.
That would mean leaving Rio Tinto, which I love and adore, through which I have met some great people. Plus I'd miss the free lunches, however I need a permanent position, so I can eventually get a mortgage and also develop my career more. As with everything I'll take each day as it comes.
I'm not sure if I should change my happy go lucky attitude, it sort of makes me what I am. Although I suppose I should take more control of my future and look further than just a day's ahead.
